scene 4, part 3

I heard a song today that took my breath away. The song is called Angels Brought Me Here. It's beautiful and amazing. I love this song and in fact have it playing right now on repeat to fuel me with emotion to write. I always have music playing while I write. I choose a certain type of music or a certain song and listen to it and it fills my heart with the emotion it portrays and guides me through my post. At the moment I have chills, my heart is heavy, and I'm resisting the urge to cry like I have been all day.

I was with my family all day today/tonight. I enjoyed the conversations, but still felt burdened and just wanted to curl up in a ball on my bed. I was teased as usual. I got there and immediately there was a joke being told and the person said the only person really not of age here is Kelli. His wife told him I was in college and probably knew more than he knew. He told the joke that my younger cousin told him! I said I'm older than he is! He said well he's in the army remember? HELLO! I'm in the freaking band! Gosh! Everyone in my family on both sides think I'm some innocent young girl who knows nothing. It's very very very annoying. Then of course my sister continued to call me anorexic and bulimic, which I certainly am not! She can't lose weight and for the past year I have been so she keeps calling me that. It hurts my feelings. I work hard to lose the weight I have lost. I try extremely hard to be in shape and I eat A LOT and do NOT throw it up! EW! Anyways it was fun but still kind of hurt at times.

I wish... but it doesn't matter for I'm beginning to feel like wishes don't come true.

love, kellbelle


"Angels Brought Me Here"

[Verse 1]
It's been a long and winding journey, but i'm finally here tonight
Picking up the pieces, and walking back into the light
Into the sunset of your glory, where my heart and future lies
There's nothing like that feeling, when i look into your eyes...

[Bridge]
My dreams came true, when i found you
I found you, my miracle...

[Chorus]
If you could see, what i see, that you're the answer to my prayers
And if you could feel, the tenderness i feel
You would know, it would be clear, that angels brought me here...

[Verse 2]
Standing here before you, feels like i've been born again
Every breath is your love, every heartbeat speaks your name...

[Bridge 2]
My dreams came true, right here in front of you
My miracle...

[Chorus]
If you could see, what i see, you're the answer to my prayers
And if you could feel, the tenderness i feel
You would know, it would be clear, that angels brought me here...

[Bridge 3]
Brought me here to be with you,
I'll be forever grateful (oh forever Faithful)
My dreams came true
When I found you
My miracle...

[Chorus]
If you could see, what i see, you're the answer to my prayers
And if you could feel, the tenderness i feel
You would know, it would be clear, that angels brought me here...
Yes they brought me here...
If you could feel, the tenderness i feel...
You would know, it would be clear, that angels brought me here...