A Short Rant

Let me just begin this with saying that I have a story to tell, but it will surely take a while to get that whole story out.

This goes to a certain guy out there named *George.

Dear George, you are not a player. You have never been a player. You do not have the personality of one. Sorry, but you don't. Confidence is okay, but confidence to the point of being narcissism or egotism, is not. Take a look in the mirror and realize that this just isn't you. I know you too well. You are going to end up hating yourself for the way you've been acting. You're trying to play some game with every girl you encounter, yet you still go home alone because it isn't working out very well for you. Why is this? It isn't you. You aren't this person. Realize who you really are and become that person. He is the guy that I always have enjoyed talking to.

When a man says that he is going to be "assertive", this always ends up meaning that he is going to be a jerk. It ALWAYS happens. I've seen it so many times. Friends who decide that they don't like who they are and they are going to become "assertive". This just ends up meaning that they bite everyone's heads off all the time and they are just mean. They say mean things and end up hurting many people's feelings. I can't stand it when guys tell me that they're going to be assertive. It normally ends up with one of two results. Either A. the guy stays "assertive" and loses a lot of friends, but gains other jerky, assertive friends and is looked down on by people or B. the guy realizes that he is being a jerk and goes back to being himself or some mixture of the two. In my opinion, a mixture is good. You can be assertive and compassionate. It IS okay.


As always, I must end with lyrics from a song:

Let's have some fun, this beat is sick
I wanna take a ride on your disco stick
Let's have some fun, this beat is sick
I wanna take a ride on your disco stick
Huh! Huh!

I wanna kiss you, but if I do then I might miss you, babe
It's complicated and stupid
Got my ass squeezed by sexy Cupid
Guess he wants to play, wants to play
A lovegame, a lovegame

Hold me and love me
Just wanna touch you for a minute
Maybe three seconds is enough For my heart to quit it
let's have some fun, this beat is sick
I wanna take a ride on your disco stick
don't think too much, just bust that stick
I wanna take a ride on your disco stick

Let's play a lovegame
Play a lovegame
Do you want love? Or you want fame?
Are you in the game?
Doin' the lovegame  Huh! 

I'm on a mission and it involves some heavy touching, yeah
You've indicated your interest I'm educated in sex, yes
And now I want it bad, want it bad
A lovegame, a lovegame

Hold me and love me
just want touch you for a minute
Maybe three seconds is enough For my heart to quit it
Let's have some fun, this beat is sick
I wanna take a ride on your disco stick
Don't think too much, just bust that stick
I wanna take a ride on your disco stick

Let's play a lovegame
Play a lovegame
Do you want love? Or you want fame?
Are you in the game?
Doin' the lovegame  Huh!

I can see you staring there from across the block
with a smile on your mouth and your hand on your huh
The story of us, it always starts the same
with a boy and a girl and a huh and a game
And a game (huh) And a game (huh) And a game (huh)
A lovegame!

Let's play a lovegame
Play a lovegame
Do you want love? Or you want fame?
Are you in the game?
Doin' the lovegame  

*names are changed to protect the not-so-innocent

A New Story

Have you ever looked back on the past year and really thought about it? All the things you accomplished, all the things you failed at, and the things you wish you'd done just a bit differently. Well I most definitely have before. 2010 was one interesting year for me. Overall, I had some great times last year and I had some tough times too. However, I don't think I would change one thing about it. I learned a lot from my past and I know that I have grown from it. I can see it in myself.

Several times this year, I have had people ask me why I keep smiling. It's not a conscious thing. I don't even realize I'm doing it. I'm just happy. I'm stressed from school, but happy. I love my friends and family. I have become closer with some people and re-established some old friendships again. Now that's not to say that I haven't had a few bad things happen already. Of course I have. But, I have not cried at all about anything. It just doesn't matter enough for me to worry about it. Yes, I finally learned to stop worrying so much!!! I really am a happier person.

I believe that my happiness has really grown because my relationship with God has developed even more. I can feel him in me and only want to please him with everything I do. God helped me so much through 2010 and all my 21 years. He has always been there for me. I think it's just time for me to feel like I deserve that.

I titled this "A New Story" because with a new year, comes a new chapter. I, however; have been writing this like a movie script so that doesn't work very well. I think that this year is going to be better and different. This entire school year has been much better than last year and I just hope that 2011 will continue with that.


And now, today's song (which keeps getting stuck in my head, as it is on my Sleep Playlist): Happy Days Are Here Again

So long sad times
Go long bad times
We are rid of you at last

Howdy gay times
Cloudy gray times
You are now a thing of the past

Happy days are here again
The skies above are clear again
So let's sing a song of cheer again
Happy days are here again

Altogether shout it now
There's no one
Who can doubt it now
So let's tell the world about it now
Happy days are here again

Your cares and troubles are gone
There'll be no more from now on
From now on ...

Happy days are here again
The skies above are clear again
So, Let's sing a song of cheer again

Happy times
Happy nights
Happy days
Are here again!