scene 1, part 3

So today I was in the car for most of the day and it gave me a lot of time to think of many things. For one, i thought more on love. However, we'll get to that later seeing as that's the longest topic really. I began to wonder earlier, say you were about to get raped or something ok? If you said Hey I have aids. or some other std, however i cant think of any others right now, Would they still want to rape you or would they kill you or let you go or what? That puzzles me... hm. lol. I have no idea what made me think of this, but somehow I did during that 45 minute wait at the arm specialist's office.

Also I went to the mall with my mom to try to find some jeans and somehow I ended up trying on swimsuits, the devil's happiness. I asked if I was too fat to wear a certain bikini...being that I've never owned a bikini before and showing that much skin freaks me out. She informed me to never tell a guy that I think I'm fat because then they'll never like me. ....Woops. Oh well. lol In my opinion a guy should 1. like me for me and 2. understand that every girl sometimes feels fat and sometimes feels super skinny and glamorous.

Someone asked me earlier what kind of guy I actually liked. I kind of thought it funny. Because honestly, it is funny. Who do I look at? The gorgeous guy with a chiseled chest. Oh yeah. lol. It's always been like that. Who do I date? The not so chiseled chest dreamy guy. To me he's always dreamy of course. Love does that. When you're in love, even the ugliest guy is gorgeous and the worst guy is the best. I like the Best-Friend-Guy. All you girls know what kind of guy I'm talking about. He's the goofy guy who always is the best friend and never the boyfriend. lol. Every guy I've ever dated has been the Best-Friend-Guy. What can I say? Old habits die hard. I guess I'm just the kind of girl who likes to have a friendship first. Where can the relationship go if there is no friendship behind it? That's my belief anyway. So there you go. I've answered your question.

I talked yesterday about love and how great it is and all, but I wanted to focus on another side of it today. What about those people who are in love with someone and that person doesn't love them back or doesn't know? Unrequited love. It's such a horrible phrase. However, there are so many among us who have or are currently experiencing this. It's a sad situation. When you love someone so much and only want them but they don't care that you even walk on the planet. Or maybe they love someone else and only see you as a friend. Or worse, they think you're a best friend and talk to you about the person they're with and how horrible they are to them. On the one hand, I'd say hey go for it. Just tell them "Oh by the way I love you and have for months ok? Thanks. Um. Bye." But honestly, I'd NEVER be able to do that. I'm such a wimp at things like that. I have my few moments in history where I've come on strong (2 to be exact) but yeah. I couldn't do it. I especially feel bad for those who love someone and the other person knows and just doesn't care. Unrequited love is probably the worst feeling and the best feeling tied together. Because on the one hand you are happy because you're in love and you're happy when that person is happy and you want them to be happy at all costs. But. They say things and do things that completely trample on your heart. It's just a sad scene.

Sometimes I find it amusing that a lot of men think that in order to be romantic they have to do some outrageous dinner and flowers and a movie and spend a lot of money. I find it amusing because to me, yeah sure that's romantic but I'll just feel guilty for you spending all your money. Now once in a while it's a good thing of course but not all the time. To me, romance is the little things. If the guy sends a text in the middle of the day just to let you know he's thinking of you, that's romantic to me. It doesn't have to say "I'm thinking of you." It could be something simple like "Hi." That alone tells me you're thinking of me. Or when a guy tells you he misses you or loves you or if he isn't to that step yet just saying I like you or You are beautiful. It's very romantic to me. Flowers are always good too of course. Not for an occasion or anything, no birthday or Christmas, just because you like me. I informed someone last night that sometimes one of the most romantic things is when a guy kisses your forehead and runs his hands through your hair and holds you close. He's not kissing your lips or anything. He's being soft and sweet. It's a special moment. Romance doesn't have to be showy. It's perfect when it's small but meaningful.

Love is the most important thing to me in the world. Love for God, friends, family, co-workers, lovers, and even strangers. Love makes the world go round. Without it, where would we be? I am passionate about many things, but I am the most passionate about love. I'll continue to try showing it to anyone I meet. It makes me happy to make someone smile. If I've made one person happy in a day then I feel I've done my job. So I'll leave you with an inspiring quote by my friends the Beatles. "All you need is love."

I hope you have a great day. Love Always, Kellbelle

scene 1, part 2, music selection

There will be several songs today.

Far Longer Than Forever
Far longer than forever
I'll hold you in my heart
It's almost like you're here with me
Although we're far apart

Far longer than forever
As constant as a star
I close my eyes and I am where you are

Sure as the dawn brings the sunrise
We've an unshakable bond
Destined to last for a lifetime and beyond

Far longer than forever (Far longer than forever)
Like no love every known
And with your love I'll never be alone

Far longer than forever (Far longer than forever)
Like no love every known
And with your love I'll never be alone

Far longer than forever
Much stronger than forever
And with your love I'll never be alone

Never, never be alone
Never, never be alone
Far longer than forever

Love Will Keep You Up All Night

I won't tell nobody
I'll just scream it in my mind
Nothing good in life is scripted
It's not like we predicted
That the one you want
Is gonna be the one you thought

I won't tell nobody
But I won't live like a prisoner
Nothing has to be so perfect
Can you tell me was it worth it
Because her heart can't lie
And even though her face may try
Love can keep you up all night

[Chorus]
Cause love will keep you up all night
It's not something you can decide
One day you're all alone
The next you're crying on the phone
Love will keep you up all night
You got a taste of sweet divine
It took you to the other side
Love will keep you up all night

If I don't tell a living soul
Still everyone would know
Yes they would
It's always three am somewhere
You know it when you get there

Some people try to cover it up
Some people think it's never enough (never enough)

[Chorus]
Cause love will keep you up all night
It's not something you can decide
One day you're all alone
The next you're crying on the phone
Love will keep you up all night
You got a taste of sweet divine
It took you to the other side
Love will keep you up all night

I don't mean to scare you
But everybody has a first time
One day when you're old and gray
Don't look back and never say
You should have tried
Stayed up all night

Love will keep you up all night
It's not something you can decide
One day you're all alone
The next you're crying on the phone

Love will keep you up all night
You got a taste of sweet divine
It took you to the other side
To the other side

Love will keep you up all night
It's not something you can decide
One day you're all alone
The next you're cryin', you're cryin'
Love will keep you up all night
You got a taste of sweet divine
It took you to the other side

Love will keep you up all night
Love will keep you up all night

Helpless When She Smiles

She keeps her secrets
In her eyes
She wraps the truth
Inside her lies
Just when I can't say
What she's done to me
She comes to me
And leads me back to paradise

She's so hard to hold
But I can't let go

[Chorus]
I'm a house of cards
in a hurricane
A reckless ride
In the pouring rain
She cuts me and the pain
Is all I wanna feel
She'll dance away just like a child
She drives me crazy
Drives me wild
But I'm helpless when she smiles

Maybe I'd fight if I could
It hurts so bad
But feels so good
She opens up just like
A rose to me
When she's close to me
Anything she'd ask me to
I would

It's out of control
But I can't let go

[Repeat Chorus]

When she looks at me
I get so weak

[Repeat Chorus]

Falling Over Me

I'm standing in the center of the room
I'm watching boys follow girls perfume
All is as it should be I assume
Except for the distance between me and you

You're standing as a flower on the wall
The room is still but we're about to fall
And all the names that brought us here
Simply fade away ...

Who you are is falling over me
(Who you are is falling over me)
Who you are is everything I need
(Who you are is everything I need)

I'm hoping
I'm waiting
I'm praying you are the one
and I'm hoping
I'm waiting
I'm praying you are the one

I can't believe that night turned into today
I used the line you were supposed to say
And all the names that brought us here
Now we have to thank

Who you are is falling over me
(Who you are is falling over me)
Who you are has got me on my knees
(Who you are has got me on my knees)

I'm hoping
I'm waiting
I'm praying you are the one


If you are I will wait I will follow
I'm here to stay
As long as we're promised tomorrow
I promise you today I'll wait
I'll wait

Who you are is falling over me
(Who you are is falling over me)
Who you are has got me on my knees
(Who you are is everything I need)

I'm hoping
I'm waiting
I'm praying you are the one
I'm hoping
I'm waiting
I'm praying you are the one

You are the one

scene 1, part 2

I was flipping channels earlier and saw that Ella Enchanted had just begun. Now I already told you how much I love movies and I have always loved this one. So I decided to watch this movie today. Ella Enchanted is a Cinderella story movie. However, this movie in particular is put back in the medieval times and includes ogres and fairies and elves. This whimsical movie always makes me laugh.

If there is one thing you should know about me it's that I am a romantic. Oh yes. I know part of this is because I'm a girl. It's expected right?lol I absolutely love romantic movies and books. Hence the fact that Beauty and the Beast is my all time favorite movie. See Beauty and the Beast is different from most of the princess stories Disney made back then. Belle actually got to know the Beast. At first he hated her and she hated him as well. But she learns that he's a great person. She doesn't just dance with the guy and go OMG i love you! no. She experiences real love. A love that we all want to experience, whether we admit it or not.

Love is such an amazing thing. Most girls imagine, from the time they are little, their handsome prince riding in and saving her. Of course, being a prince, he must be tall and gorgeous with a great body. He is the most romantic man on Earth and brings her roses out of no where. He always tells her how wonderful she is and how she is the most beautiful person on the planet. However, when girls are younger they don't realize that sometimes they won't like the prince. The prince will be terrible and think of himself and not tell her how wonderful she is. Sometimes he'll go days without even talking to her. They especially don't think of how horrible they'll be to the prince either. How selfish they'll be and how they'll want him to act like a prince all the time and get upset with him when he doesn't.

We imagine the guy always being a perfect gentleman. Then we fall in love. We learn that it's not him being perfect and wonderful that we love. It's when he's goofy and when he does stupid things to impress you. We even look back and laugh at old fights. We even kind of find it endearing. The fact that he even cared enough to actually fight and then work it out, rather than just saying "Oh screw you. I'm done with this stuff." and forgetting you. After having been in love just once, whether we currently are or not, romance movies change. We realize that in the movies it's the silly things that the girl likes that makes her fall in love with him. It wasn't him being that perfect gentleman. Because there is no perfect gentleman. There's no perfect lady either.

Yes, we girls love our romance movies. Why? It keeps us dreaming. It keeps us hoping that that goofy prince who hurts your feelings but then always comes back, is out there or for some, notices us. Yes love is a funny thing. But it's amazing. So I'll keep on watching my romance movies and reading my stories. I'll still sniff the roses every time I walk into a Wal Mart like I have done since I was a little girl. Because what is love to me? A rose. Simple enough. It's beautiful, but still has it's thorns.

I hope you have a wonderful day! Love Always, Kellbelle

scene 1, music selection

so i tend to write songs. well. i listen to them A LOT. i always have music playing. i just love music so much. so for every scene i write i must have background music right? right. every movie's gotta soundtrack. some songs i'll have written and some i just like. driving will be the first song on this soundtrack. don't ask me why because i don't really know.

driving all through the night
the city's lights keep me going
i have to get away
to get out of town
i can't be with you right now

going one-eighteen in a sixty-five
i feel like i'm barely moving
no one is on the road
they're all happily asleep in their beds
just like you are

driving all through the night
the city's lights keep me going
i have to get away
to get out of town
i can't be with you right now

the safest place for me to be
is wherever you aren't
so i'm going nowhere and anywhere
crying as i drive
knowing i should stop

driving all through the night
the city's lights keep me going
i have to get away
to get out of town
i can't be with you right now

why did you hurt me
why dont you care
why did i believe you
bc now i love you
and you just want to beat me down
and running away wont help me
i can't outrun loving you
as much as it hurts

i slam on the brakes
turn the car around
driving all through the night
the thoughts of you filling my mind
i'm heading back to you
to tell you i'm through

scene 1, take 1

my name is kelli. hello. wow. i feel like i'm talking to myself. but ok. you'll just have to bear with me until i get this figured out exactly. hence the title is scene 1, TAKE 1. lol i prefer to think of my life as a movie. so welcome to the theater. i hope you enjoy the show. :)

i am a student at the college that i attend. however i think it's a bit too early in our relationship for me to tell you where. (yes. we are going to look at this as a relationship.one between the movie watcher and the actor.) i decided to attend said mysterious college to attain a degree in the medical field. i want to be a pediatric oncologist (child's cancer doctor). sometimes i'm not quite sure if i can do it. if i'm smart enough. so i say forget oncology i'll just be a pediatrician. whatever i end up doing, i know it will be with children. i love working with children. they are so happy and innocent. they see things in life that we don't. i have 3 current jobs that all have to do with children.

i have great friends. i love them all. one of my best friends, Ashton, is currently in Japan. I miss her so much. i feel like a part of me is missing while she's gone. but i'm better now than i was when she first left. i also have Michael W. who a great best friend. he is always there for me. he knows everything i think...but that's because we think so much alike! as do ashton and i. Lacey is my old roomie. i'll miss living with her this year but we'll still be together all the time. and of course her boyfriend Michael H. will always be around as well. LOL. Shane is a great friend of mine also. He's funny and always makes me laugh. so does Daniel!! I have so many friends and i'll write them on here at some point in time but for right now these are good. lol. you'l be hearing about these people a lot.

i love movies. i watch so many movies and own a lot also. i always wanted to be an actress. i was in drama in high school and in many plays. i love to act. i feel so happy when i am acting. sadly, in college i can't be in drama because i'm not a major. i actually almost went to NYFA for acting. NYFA is New York Film Academy. Because i love movies so much is why i decided that this is going to be kind of like a movie. However, right now it's kind of like introducing the main character and the supporting characters.

for now that's all i've got for you. i'm sorry this is so choppy. i've just got to get my flow going. i hope you have a great day. Love always, Kellbelle