scene 7, part 3

I am one of those people who makes up my mind on something and typically sticks to it. Many have called me persistent. However, this persistent girl has given up. I will not continue down this road anymore. They say dreams are a wish your heart makes, but I believe sometimes dreams are warnings as well. I think dreams show you what you're afraid to admit to yourself. I have been having dreams about a certain thing since Saturday. Each dream ends with the same conclusion. Today I awoke all mad and then realized again that it was a dream. Later today I realized my dream was correct. I went to classes and wrote my first song since before school started and then went to the park afterwards. I walked along the trail and lay down on the benches, staring into the blue sky and thinking. I began to cry at times as I thought of all of the things I miss and yearn for. I listened to music and just thought and then as I came home, I got on a warpath. I was so angry at everyone and everything. I probably scared Aiynor half to death as I yelled out "Do not leave your freaking food out on the counter!" from the kitchen... I didn't know anyone was home. When I walked back out she was putting it up. You see Aiynor has a habit of leaving food in my pans on the stove just sitting there for days at a time. It is very very annoying and ruining my pans. I'm not angry anymore. I'm being cautious of my heart from now on.

thoughts of you fill my mind
the feelings of your lips against mine
your warm embrace
those eyes that scorch my soul

you're nothing but a memory now
you left me all alone out in the cold
you game me a promise of a happier day
a day where we would be together
and then took it all away

i believed that you did care for me
the looks you gave were filled with love
hope swept through my body
as you pulled me close and held me tight

you're nothing but a memory now
you left me all alone out in the cold
you gave me a promise of a happier day
a day where we would be together
and then you took it all away

for so long my skies were gray
i cried over you
and wished for the promise you left unfulfilled
now sun is streaming out all around
the sounds of laughter have taken the place of my tears
and i'm no longer driven by fear

you're nothing but a memory now
you left me out in the cold
you gave me a promise of a happier day
a day where we would be together
then i realized i didn't want it anyway